The ups and downs of wanting to take care of my diabetes is on the way down.
I am just sick of it. Sick of checking my blood, putting in infusion sets, inserting CGM sensors, taking pills, counting carbs, bolusing properly, correcting mistakes, going to the doctors, all of it. Every last bit.
I know this doesn't last and I know I have to get over it but right now, I couldn't care less.
My head is spinning around trying to make sense of this lack of motivation at honestly, I think it's just that I am completely and utterly bored. Diabetes is boring. At least all the steps you have to take are boring.
So do I try to get the new Dexcom? Maybe a new device on the way will brighten me up some? A new meter? Really? Is that all I can come up with?
I try writing about uplifting things and nope, I can't do it. Burnout, total burnout is where I am now.
So now what?