The holidays were spent in a cough syrup fog and breathing treatment haze. Not the way I normally I like to spend the end of the year but so be it.
As I look ahead to 2015, I am hoping my involvement in the DOC will reach back to the level it used to be. Seminars, chats, blog posting, blog reading, and just being around was such a joy for me. Plus it kept me focused on my health so much more than I am without the DOC.
I can probably find 100 posts that sound exactly like this one. Promises to be more involved, to remember every day how much this community means to me. Wishing to travel to conferences and meet up with my online friends. I write a post like this often.
For me this is like quitting smoking. I must have quit smoking 50 times before I finally actually quit. Sometimes it takes talking yourself into something over and over before you actually pull it off.
Once my pastor said in a sermon, "everyone is a hypocrite when they are trying to change their lives. The key is to not focus on it and to rather continue on until you have become that changed person." I think about this a lot.
So often I am critical of everything I do and everything I want to become. I have to remember that the stress of life like family, work, money, and diabetes can take its toll. Sometimes just saying we want to change can be the beginning of the change we need to make.
That is where I am once again. This time may be the one that does it!