My year was filled with self chosen negative responses that made me feel terrible.
Lots of goals were forgotten.
Dreams I had been holding onto for years and believing in became an annoyance.
I had no major health issues.
My sister fought and won the battle with cancer.
A surprise party for my 40th was a highlight.
Finances continue to cloud my plans.
The physical self I planned to sculpt became the victim of procrastination and lack of motivation.
Me and my guitar performed at two weddings.
I did not volunteer for anything for the entire year.
The mustache that so many had no problem saying they didn't like has been worn for an entire calendar year.
The last thought reminded me how much I cannot stand mean people, and how many I know. And how much I can be one too. And how I need to stop.
My absolute favorite moment of the year was sitting in a sleezy smoke filled casino in Downtown Las Vegas by myself drinking alcohol in front of a slot machine until 4AM. This moment was significant and something I have never done in my life. I actually was okay being with myself which some may say was pathetic but in all honesty, it is what is makes me want to turn this whole negative crap around.
Next year is going to be so much better because of all the reflecting I have been doing since that night in Vegas.
My last thought is that this post started off as something completely different, as did this blog, but it is what it is and there must be a reason for it.
Here's to 2014! Bring it.