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Medtronic Diabetes Advocate Forum 

Last week I attended the Medtronic Diabetes Advocates summit. This year both Medtronic and Bayer sponsored the event. They put me up in hotel, fed me, and are taking care of other expenses. Since I am “local” I got to drive to the hotel which is fine by me.

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I always love getting a chance to hang out with my DOC family and meet new people in the community. That is usually the driving force behind attendance but this seemed different. Although we had a great time seeing one another there was this feeling like we were ready to get stuff done and work together to do it!

Medtronic really did a great job balancing product info and advocacy. It felt both like a meeting for them and for us. I really appreciated that. There are lots of things spinning around in my head about the event but the important thing to note is that the event really jumpstarted my advocacy heart.

Lately I have been feeling a little stale when it comes to my contributions to the DOC but now I am ready to go.

Thanks to all the Medtronic team for putting together a great event and for being so kind to all of us.

Kim, Sara, and Kerri wrote some great posts about the event that you should check out too. They write way better than I do.


Blogaversary - The Ocho

Eight years. That is crazy.

Eight years ago today I started blogging. My drive was to share my story and connect with others as I travelled down a path to better health. 

There have been lots of ups and downs over these 8 years. The ups have included some major changes to the way I see my diabetes and my attempt to keep it managed. The relationships I have madet that stemmed from this blog have been a major positive in my life. Friends that I will have forever!

The best thing that has happened to me is hearing from the people my blog has touched. I share all my stuff on this site in hopes that others will not feel alone and can learn from what I have been through. Hopefully saving them some grief and struggle. That is a dream come true for me and why I continue to do this. 

Sure I don't write as often as I used to but I promise I will always share my stuff, I will always be honest, I will always be looking for more people to connect with, and I will always keep this place as my little internet home. 

Happy Blogaverary to me.


Thoughts of '13

My year was filled with self chosen negative responses that made me feel terrible.

Lots of goals were forgotten.

Dreams I had been holding onto for years and believing in became an annoyance.

I had no major health issues.

My sister fought and won the battle with cancer. 

A surprise party for my 40th was a highlight.

Finances continue to cloud my plans.

The physical self I planned to sculpt became the victim of procrastination and lack of motivation.

Me and my guitar performed at two weddings.

I did not volunteer for anything for the entire year.

The mustache that so many had no problem saying they didn't like has been worn for an entire calendar year. 

The last thought reminded me how much I cannot stand mean people, and how many I know. And how much I can be one too. And how I need to stop.

My absolute favorite moment of the year was sitting in a sleezy smoke filled casino in Downtown Las Vegas by myself drinking alcohol in front of a slot machine until 4AM. This moment was significant and something I have never done in my life. I actually was okay being with myself which some may say was pathetic but in all honesty, it is what is makes me want to turn this whole negative crap around. 

Next year is going to be so much better because of all the reflecting I have been doing since that night in Vegas. 

My last thought is that this post started off as something completely different, as did this blog, but it is what it is and there must be a reason for it. 

Here's to 2014! Bring it.


Merry Christmas

The holidays are a time for seeing family, having fun, and sharing our unconditional love for one another. This picture with my Aunt Addie sums it all up for me.


Merry Christmas! Happy Holidays! May your bg be in range, your swag boluses effective, and your medicine work exactly as intended!



It's a Trap!

6:00 AM this morning I was just about to get out of the shower when I realized I had no clue how to open the door. The tiny shower in our master bedroom bathroom had become a trap. A trap that was spinning around and feeling like it was getting warmer by the second.

I finally realized I was having a low and needed to get out. A moment later I figured out which way the door swung, grabbed a towel, and stumbled to my bed. My wife knew there was something wrong since I would never step foot out of the bathroom dripping wet. 

She grabbed a bottle of liquid glucose. I chugged it down and checked my bg. 37. My Dexcom was screaming at me and sounding like a fog horn. I felt like I was still dropping so I took another. I checked my bg. 45. I finally started to feel normal. Got up and got dressed and headed out to work.

On the way in I pulled thru a fast food joint to grab an egg burrito for breakfast. As soon as I paid for it and started to pull away I started to feel like I was low again. I grabbed a few glucose tabs from the bottle I keep in the door of my car and chomped them down before I ate the burrito.

I decided not to bolus for breakfast and just deal with a correction later. As soon as I got off of the freeway and was just about to pull into the parking lot at work I started to sweat and feel all those hypo symptoms I am all to familiar with. 

At this point I was so angry and sweaty and tired and fed up and a bunch of other things all at the same time. I walked in and my boss makes a comment about how nice I look today but that my face does not look as happy as it usually does. I started to explain to him how I was battling a low all morning.

When I told him how I was in the shower and could not remember how to get out I started getting choked up. My coworker/friend was in the room with us and she has been around both highs and lows so she gets it. As embarassed and angry as I was letting myself get emotional I think it helped get the point across in way words alone can't.

He asked more about the balance of insulin to food, where my bg should be, why technology has not advanced enough, and how I am doing. It was a moment I wish didn't happen but am thankful turned out the way it did. 

The silver lining in this is the education and understanding I was able to share. It took a lot out of me emotionally and physically but if it was all meant to help my boss understand what people with diabetes go through then it was worth it. 

Oh and FYI, my Dexcom just alarmed with another low.